Welcome to the 2nd trimester!

Well I have had a great 2 weeks! A very busy 2 weeks as well!

Matt and I had a great 12 week ultrasound and appointment! We got to see the baby moving and dancing and even doing headstands. The ultrasound tech thought she saw boy parts, but wasn't sure. We go back on the 29th for our official gender ultrasound and anatomy scan. I can't wait!

We also got a crib! My mom was sooo nice to buy it for us. It's beautiful. I thought I was going to have to get a white one, but she was generous enough to buy me the dark chocolate one I really, really love. I just have to get the dresser at a later date. I can't wait to set it up. I can only imagine the little person I'm going to get to put in there in a few months!

And the biggest news of all... we are moving to Mobile, Alabama. It's a major life change for me as I've always been in the same place and all my family is here. But I will get the opportunity to be a stay at home mom while we are there and we'll be there for about 2 years. I'm nervous but very excited. We are moving the first week of October which is just around the corner!

11 weeks =)

I'm 11 weeks today! I feel great! I was sick last Thursday through Sunday so I am glad that the fly is out of my system! Poor Matt got sick on Sunday but it seemed to only be a 24 hour bug for him. Lucky. I also found and finally got to see that there is a tiny brown bunny living in my backyard. It's inhabiting my herb garden and slips in and out of the fence to get into the woods behind my house. I'm on a mission to get a picture of it. I took out some lettuce and when I went back out there it was eating it. It's so cute! I have to keep the dogs from killing it. I'm mostly worried about Remi, but when I yell at her she will stop whatever she's doing.

25% of that way done!

On Tuesday, I hit 10 weeks! That means I'm officially 25% of the way done with this pregnancy. That just seems amazing. It has gone by so fast. I got the best 10 weeks present though! I got to go see Poppy on another ultrasound. This time the baby was moving and waving and it looks like a baby. It was awesome. Then on Wednesday I found out that we will be moving to Mobile in 1-2 months. I have to find a house, new doctor, and hospital from 6 hours away! It seems like a feat. It does give me the opportunity to be a stay at home mommy though so I'm very excited! =)

9 weeks!

I have made it to 9 weeks! Thank God! It feels great because I know that week 8 is a critical week. Matt's parents are coming in town on Friday and we will finally tell them and my mom and then announce it to the world. I can't wait. My mom is going to be so excited. I am happy we waited a while though, it may make them not worry so much. Happy 9 weeks Poppy!

My Gummy Bear

I had a wonderful doctors appointment today. I got there and they said all of my bloodwork and urine cultures came back fantastic. Then they told me I would get another ultrasound. I was so excited to see Poppy on the big screen again and I was so sad that Matt couldn't be there to see it. Poppy is perfect, but the cyst does not seem to be resolving. I go back on September 1st and I get to have another ultrasound. I kinda like having all of these ultrasounds. It's so reassuring to see baby up there. We will get to take a DVD next time where all of the babie's movements will be recorded. This is so exciting!

Thank you Lord for blessing us!

8 weeks!

Slacker

Wow. I am a total slacker. The utter exhaustion has finally set in. It's a catch 22. I love being exhausted because it's a sign that everything is going well but I hate being exhausted because well, I'm exhausted. I didn't even get to take a 7 week picture because I was too tired to stand up and smile for the 3 seconds required to take the picture. I am officially 8 weeks today and am praying for the strength to get off the couch when Matt gets home and take my picture.

Today has been good so far. I went to the chiropractor and he did a pregnant ladies adjustment. It was fantastic! I haven't heard my back crack in so many places in my life. I go back on Friday and I am looking forward to it. Tomorrow I have my OB appointment at 9 AM. I was hoping Matt would make it, but it doesn't look like he will. Oh well. It won't be very exciting anyways. Just a quick exam. I don't even get to hear the heartbeat on doppler. It's too early to hear that way. I can't wait!

7 weeks!

I had a great day today! I am 7 weeks today which means I am more than halfway done with the first trimester! I had an OB appointment this morning that took TWO hours. I will have to put that info on my next post because I am so tired I could sleep for days. I didn't get to take my 7 week picture yet either so alot will be coming tomorrow! Sweet dreams and happy 7 weeks Poppy!

A Bump!

Today I have had an obsession with rubbing my belly. I think it may be because I had a great dream last night replaying Thursday. I was able to see and hear the heartbeat so vividly. I usually only rub my belly while laying down and nothing really seems too different. However, I was standing up in the kitchen and had the urge to start rubbing. When I did I could feel a bump! Starting at my bellybutton and going down it didn't feel different, but then all of the the sudden my stomach went back out and down. The perfect tiny bump! I know I won't be 7 weeks until Tuesday so it's early to have a bump, but it's there! There is no denying it! Even Matt could feel it. Now I can't stop. Since I don't look pregnant I'm going to have to remember to not rub so much in public, other wise it may look like I have an upset stomach. :)

Baby's First Picture!

Matt and I had an AMAZING doctor's appointment today. Myduedate has been moved to March 20, 2010. We got to see our little poppy seed and we got to see the heartbeat! Not only did we see it, we heard it! It was amazing. The first 3 beats were so strong and loud then I starting laughing and we lost it. We found it again, but not as loud. It was amazing. I feel like I could conquer anything. I'm so in love. The heart was beating at 112 beats per minute. I think that it might be a boy!

6 weeks!

Here is my 6 week picture! Officially it's 6 weeks 1 day, but whose counting?

Baby Names

I found a website that allows you to choose your favorite names and let's people vote on them. I don't really care if others like the name we choose, but it's still fun.
http://www.babynames.com/namelist/9723275

Stress

Stress cannot be good for this baby. I have had an extremely stressful day and now I am having the worst cramps. They hurt so bad. So now I am stressing over stressing. It's horible. I just need to relax, breath, drink some water and go to sleep. This too shall pass, however the worrying never will.

Reason # 1,729,031 I Love My Husband

I completely fall head over heels when he kisses the baby. I could not be happier to carry his child and cannot imagine a better father. Our little tiny poppy seed is so incredibly loved. I can't wait for our family of two to become a family of three. How did I get so lucky?

Countdown to Labor Day!

When I was younger I lived in a really small community (we are talking like less than 1000 people). I lived on a lake and my grandmother lived directly next door. The other 2 houses in my direct vicinity were friends of the family and we have all tried to stay close. Jill, who lived 3 houses down from me and 2 down from grandmother is about 15 years older than me. Her mother, Mary, died last year and the whole family was devestated. Jill just announced to us that she is getting married! She is bringing up her fiance Labor Day weekend and my family is having a huge get together in their honor. I can't wait to see her. I also can't wait to meet the man she's going to marry. I truly care about her and want her to have all the happiness in the world. I will be ending the first trimester and should be going on 13 weeks the day after Labor Day. I have decided that I will announce it to the family at the get together. I know Jill will be sooo happy for us and I am so excited I get to include her on this fun time! I'm going to wrap up the Gator pacifier and will have my grandmother open it in front of the whole family. I can't wait! It seems so far away!

Hello, My Name is Crazy Hormonal Lady

This is the first time in my life I have gone from being so excited I want to do cartwheels to sobbing over a cereal commercial. This must be what it feels like to be bipolar. It's such a rollercoaster. I think I may have to limit myself to the types of TV shows I watch.

Memo's to Myself

1. Do not register for the baby shower yet. Yes I'm excited but I'm only 5 weeks 1 day! I can go and search up and down the aisles all day long and dream of what to put on the registry... but try to hold out. At least til 12 weeks :)

2. Pushing out my stomach while slouching my shoulders does not make me look more pregnant. It makes me look fat and grumpy.

3. Stop being such a bad lier. People may think I'm pregnant based on the fact that I'm not drinking, but smiling from ear to ear while saying "Me? Pregnant? NOOOOOOOO" is not very convincing.

4. The smell of bleach really does make me sick. Make sure to have Matt clean the bathrooms. :) And why not the rest of the house while he's at it?

5. I should not feel guilty for wanting to be in bed by 5 P.M. In 8 months give or take, laying in bed will be foreign.

One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

I got to go to the OB's office today. It was nice having my pregnancy confirmed and knowing that I really am not imagining all of this. He felt my stomach and told me that there was something growing in there. That made me smile. I then get ready for the ultrasound. He looks all around and sure enough, there is my baby. My poppy seed is so tiny but is in the right place. I was so happy to hear all of this. Then he starts to look at my ovaries and all my good news is replaced with a new concern. I have a hemmorhagic cyst on my right ovary. It's really, really big. I've had lots of them my whole life, but this one worrys me. It's blood filled and it's inside my ovary, not outside. It if ruptures my whole ovary will rupture. I am so nervous. I get to go in next Thursday to have another look and make sure that baby is growing and cyst is shrinking. I may have the opportunity to see the heartbeat next week though so I am really happy about that. Right now I can only pray that everything goes well and this pregnancy will end happily. However this does confirm that my "bump" is real, not bloat. It just happens to be extremely exaggerated due to the cyst.

I'll never catch a reproductive break *sigh*

Happy 5 Weeks Baby!

Today is five weeks. I feel like I have exploded but I know it's just from being bloated. I can't wait until the belly is real and doesn't come and go :) I feel pretty good. I am still getting sick in the early afternoon. I would much rather be sick then instead of waking up that way though. Tomorrow morning, at 9:30, I get to go have an ultrasound to see my little poppy seed. I can't wait. I'll never get to sleep tonight. Man, my yard needs some work. Ignore the grass. :)

My First Puke

I don't think I have ever been more excited to throw up in my life. It's a reassurance thing. It means my hormones are increasing and all is well. I was at Elizabeth's baby shower, and sure enough it started. Not the best place or time since I was around a whole bunch of people I didn't know, but I think I held it together pretty well. I did have to leave early because I could feel it coming on stronger, but at least I made it most of the way.

Sunday morning was even worse. We were suppossed to go to a barbeque and I could not do it. I thought that the smell of food being cooked would have never let me quit getting sick. I was just sitting at home and just the thought of food was making me sick. So I spent all day Sunday going from the couch to the bed and back to the couch. At least I threw in a bath somewhere in the mix. I still can't help but feel like a bad friend though. :(

Pregnant Women Shoud NOT Be Allowed To Do The Grocery Shopping

I decided to go to the grocery store to finally get some food in this house. We have literally almost eaten EVERYTHING. So I go, list in hand, to get the necessities. We have a budget now that we are really trying to save every penny. I have every intention of following it to a "T." I get to the store and pull out my list. As I go to grab the item on it, I realize that whatever it is, it is not appealing. Actually, none of this stuff sounds very appetizing. I go ahead and grab everything on the list as well as a whole cart full of stuff not on the list. Everything sounded so delicious at the time. I get home, unload, and decide that I'm starving. Seeing as I just went shopping it would only make sense to think that we had food in the house that I could eat. Well all of that stuff on the list - and off- is now really gross sounding. So now, after spending twice what I had budgeted, I went to Sonic.

Grrrrrr..........

Sad About Softball

For years Matt and I have been talking about joining a softball team. I know he misses it really bad and loved it in High School. I decided to look into joining a team here for the summer season and we were able to actually start our own. I was so excited to do something with him that he loves so much. The first game is next week and my doctor just told me I am unable to play. I'm not aloud to do any jogging or jarring motions due to my history of miscarriage. I'm so sad. I really wanted to do this. I guess I will be the cheerleader and I will bring a different team mascot each week, Dixie, Remi, or Bailey.

The Picture

Here is my official 4 week picture. I'm going to find an outfit I can wear for the next 8 months and try to take my picture wearing it each week to get a better idea of how blimp like I will get.

I'm officially a watermelon smuggler.

They are all lies!

My whole life I have always heard of the woe's of morning sickness. It's a crock of lies. I am my best in the morning. I feel great. It's dinner time that has become my enemy. It's like clockwork, I come home after work salivating over whatever it is that we have decided to eat for dinner. I am usually starving. After Matt or I get everything ready and we sit down to eat.

I pick up the [insert food here] and my mouth waters. I get it to my lips and then WHAM! Nothing wants to cooperate. I try to force the food past my lips and onto my tongue and that's when I realize the magnitude of my mistake. One of the hardest things in life is to be starving and have a beautiful meal in front of you that is impossible to eat. Grr.... at least I have the ability to lay down in bed during my "morning" sickness. C'est la vie.

My Due Date

After talking to the phone nurse at my OB's office and doing all the menstrual math my official due date is ...

MARCH 17TH

That just happens to be St. Patrick's Day and our 3rd Anniversary. What a great day. I get to go in for a super early Ultrasound next Wednesday when I will be 5 weeks 1 day. I will be lucky if they can actually see the baby, but at least they can tell me that everything looks great.

I feel sooo ashamed.

I should be ashamed of myself. As a die hard Florida Gators fan I know that it is my number one priority to only support them and never another team. To do otherwise would be sacreligious. We are going to have one confused baby. I'm a Gator and Matt is a fan of our nemesis, the Georgia Bulldogs. To make matters even worse he and his whole family are Ohio State Buckeye fans. Not only can I look past that fact, but I actually bought a peice of buckeye fanware for the baby! I found these and had to get them in both teams. I am going to wrap them up individually and have a family member open them at the next gathering we have when we are in the safe zone. My grandmother will open one, my mom the other. Matt's dad will open the Buckeye one. I'm so excited. I found the Florida one here, but I ordered the Buckeye one. It should be here in few days.

My First Pregnant Picture

July 7th:

I got to take my first official pregnancy picture today at 4 weeks. I can't wait for the bump to show up.

I'm having a really hard time not being "allowed" to tell my family about the baby. Matt and I talked about it and we said we would wait until we heard the heartbeat at least but would try and hold out til the end of the first trimester. We are so worried about getting everyone's hopes up and having them be excited for us again for it to end badly again. I want to scream it from the rooftops.... "I'M PREGNANT!" I have high hopes for this one. At least I didn't have to keep it a total secret. I did get to tell Bree since she has been going through some fertility treatments as well and we were in the same boat as far as how bad they suck. I also told Elizabeth since she was my Clomid mentor. She was able to help me alot and there is no way in hell I would have been able to keep my mouth shut. Besides that, there's no one in real life who knows our situation. I do have some "friends" who helped me tremendously through trying to get pregnant. We've never actually met though. Only on a website designed for women who are trying to get pregnant, are pregnant, or have children. I think it's a fantastic form of support and I can ask my "is this normal" question without having to worry about people in real life knowing.

"Pregnant"

July 5th:

It's official. I bought a digital pregnancy test so I would not have to interpret the lines. It came up as "Pregnant" in less than 20 seconds. Oh Lord, please let this one go much better than the last. I'm already in love.

Is that line really there?

July 4th:

It's 6 A.M. and I'm waking up way to early. I've been doing this for weeks. Every morning is the same. Alarm goes off, pop the thermometer in my mouth and leave it until it beeps, dog's bark at the beep, and I'm up to keep them quiet. I'm TRYING to let Matt sleep through all this, but I have to take my temperature. Doctor's orders. He wants to make sure the Clomid works.
This morning temperature reading is high. Hmmm... that looks like a great sign. I already have my hopes up since last night. We watched Gran Tarino and I bawled. Like a baby. I sure hope those were pregnancy hormones. After I get the dogs quiet I tiptoe to the bathroom and get out my stash of pregnancy tests. I've only tested 10 times this month, which seems crazy because it is. There's no way that this mornings test would show anything that last nights didn't.

It's been 2 full minutes since I have peed on the test. I haven't looked yet. I don't want to get my hopes demolished when I only see that one line, AGAIN. The thought of taking the Clomid again makes me sick to my stomach. Or is that a symptom? I better go look at the test...

OH MY GOD! I see a second line! I see it! It's tiny and I have to squint but it's there! Wait.... maybe this is a fluke. I break out another and test again. This time I pull out the Rolls Royce of early pregnancy tests... The First Response Early Result. There's a second line on this one! I can't believe it. I'm so excited. I've been dreaming of telling Matt under the fireworks tonight if I did find out I was pregnant but I'm a horrible secret keeper. How am I going to keep this under wraps for the next 13 hours?

I wake up and get dressed to go to Walmart to keep my self occupied and buy something cute I can give Matt tonight to tell him. It's 6:30, he'll never know I'm gone, but just in case I leave a note in the kitchen telling him I went to WalMart and I'll be back soon. Of course this has to be the one morning he wakes up at the crack of dawn. I've barely left the neighborhood when I get the phone call.

Me: "Hello?"

Him: "Hey, where did you go so early?"

Me: "Wal-Mart. I couldn't sleep."

Him: "What for?"

Me: "Ummm.... sod?" Crap. I know they don't sell sod at WalMart. I should have thought of a story before I left the house.

Him: "Well where are you?"

Me: "Just left the neighborhood, I'll be back shortly."

Him: "Come back and get me, I'll go with you."

Me: "That's O.K. I wan't to get you a surprise."

Him: "Are you PREGNANT?"

Me: "YESSSSSSSS!"

Him: "Where's the test?!?!!?"

Me: "I'm turning around. I love you."

So much for waiting 13 hours. I honestly am shocked I didn't jump on the bed the minute the second test came back positive. I held it in for a full 14 minutes. I should be very proud of myself.