Wednesday, July 8, 2009

My First Pregnant Picture

July 7th:

I got to take my first official pregnancy picture today at 4 weeks. I can't wait for the bump to show up.

I'm having a really hard time not being "allowed" to tell my family about the baby. Matt and I talked about it and we said we would wait until we heard the heartbeat at least but would try and hold out til the end of the first trimester. We are so worried about getting everyone's hopes up and having them be excited for us again for it to end badly again. I want to scream it from the rooftops.... "I'M PREGNANT!" I have high hopes for this one. At least I didn't have to keep it a total secret. I did get to tell Bree since she has been going through some fertility treatments as well and we were in the same boat as far as how bad they suck. I also told Elizabeth since she was my Clomid mentor. She was able to help me alot and there is no way in hell I would have been able to keep my mouth shut. Besides that, there's no one in real life who knows our situation. I do have some "friends" who helped me tremendously through trying to get pregnant. We've never actually met though. Only on a website designed for women who are trying to get pregnant, are pregnant, or have children. I think it's a fantastic form of support and I can ask my "is this normal" question without having to worry about people in real life knowing.


  1. Congrad. I've had 2 of my 3 by using clomid. We our using clomid for the last time to try for a boy. Enjoy every moment.

  2. Just thinking about how much you have been through over the past few months makes me tear up, Hols. I am so happy for you (and me-haha) and I can't wait until our baby is here so we can show her more love than she will ever need to survive! I've always heard that "good things come to those who wait" and "You have to fight for everything you want and everything good in life." Well, I think that those two statements pretty much sum up your journey of getting your very first (or fourth- I'm not forgetting my D, Bailey and Remi Rose haha) baby to call your own. Your news the other day brought me to tears and I just wanted to tell you how happy you made me and how I'm looking SO forward to the next few years of BLISS that will be here on March 17 (approx 8 months and 5 days)!! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!
    Love, Bree Anne